im still alive JESSICA!!

i love ya hon!!! well i have been busy with sick kids and my self, so i havent felt like writing or talking much since my troath hurts just thinking about it, but i will get better as soon as the doctor can squeez me in for a visit, i have a very ugly ear infectiuon and troath. so it hurts lets just leave it at that.

well besides that we havent done much gas is so expensive that it hurts me to move the car so i try not to. David is doing good, he moved to other barracks and they have no reseption whatsoever and it drives me nuts because he cant call me or when he does in for a few minutes and then nothing for the rest of the day, it really sucks. all i kno wis that he has been at the range and he did great lie always, so proud of him and he also got burned by a case shell, he was firing his rifle and the shell when inside his uniform and burned him on the neck, he had the medic check it after he was done shooting and it appears that it is a 2nd degree burn so the medic is takin care of him as far as checing the burn and aplying ointment and stuff. I told David that he didnt have to lie to cover his hickies and he laughed and said i wish it was because it wouldnt hurt so much. so i tease him. he is an awesome hubby and i love him.

i also got a callin in primary, i will start this sunday and im exsited. logan is soon to be in nursery and its awesome, he is so funny he loves touching his pee pee everytime i change his diaper and so today i taped his hands inside the diaper and he was laughing anfd walking around with his hands "busy". also he learned to say "shoe" and "no : both with his words and fingers, he also loves kissing and he only does it to whom ever he likes.

the girls are doing great they are such smarty pants and they ate POTTY TRAINED!!yyyeeeaaahhhh!!!! they have been diaper free thru the day for 2 weeks now , they still wear it at night but we are working on it. i am so proud of them, such big girls.

ok its late and i have to go to sleep my kids wake up early and i have to be at my best for them, k love ya all ana.

p.s there is this new show called CARRIER in PBS channel and its a great show.
also Greys Anatomy is back on and im loving every minute of it!!

SITTING HERE ALONE...

i started to think of how lucky i am for having what i have. I have the most amazing husband, that loves me and is always there for me, we have had our ups and downs in our 4 years of marriage, like any other marriage. I was thinking that we are going on our 4Th year anniversary and we have only been together for 22 months, sad, i know. and the saddest part is that by the time he comes back it will be 5 years and still 22 months!!! yes 22 months out of 60 months.
i have loved and enjoyed every moment of it, he is my world and my best friend, i would not know what to do without him. he is my rock and my home. i would be lost without him.

then there is my kids, that keep me busy all day, between diapers and bottles i keep busy, but trust me when i say that they are the reason I'm still standing. if i didn't have them and David gone, i think i would be so depressed. they are my heart, and a pain in my butt but i love them to death and would do anything for them. they are so smart and beautiful and they can win you with a smile.

Then there is our families, in both sides. Mom, she is the kindness women i know, and she loves her children more then you guys can even imagine. she always has an answer and help your whatever problem you bring to her. Dad, well dad is the man you can come to if you are in a bit of problems, he will lecture you and tell you why you are in trouble and then he will help you, he only wants the best for his kids and their families, he worries for everyone and loves each and every one of them. he is very funny and one thing i have learned from him is bargain shop, looking at ads in the grocery paper and dint spend it all in one place. I' m very grateful to have him in my life.
then there is the rest of the Winegar/Frias/Kinneys/Winegars, they all are very good to my kids and me, they are always worried for us and care. send our kids gifts and call as often as they can. so for that i love them very much.

my mother is always worried for us, she thinks i cant survive without David, and in part she is right, i don't know how i do it without him. she is always telling me to take care and to be strong. and she should know, she raise my 4 sisters and me, worked all her life to give us what we have and what we are, she is my rock and example. i love her so much and I'm sad i don't have her closer to tell her everyday. My dad passes away in 2006 and the only regret i have is not being able to say goodbye to him. i will Carrie that with me every day of my life.

Then there is the rest of the Afres/Magana/Del moral/Olmos clan that are helping me constantly,always calling me and making sure i don't get lonely and sad. they Cheer me up and help me with the kids. i love them dearly and appreciate all the do for me.

then there is my friends, the ones that i don't have close by but they are there for me, i have made friends along our journey and let me tell you that they are amazing people. When family is not close to you then friends help fill that emptiness. i have been very lucky finding the best friends a women can get, so thank you.

then there is ME..... what can i say about me, well people always tell me" you are so strong, and i don't know how you do it" and in reality i don't know how i do it either,at the end of my day I'm alone and in bed with no one to talk and no one to hug. i think that's the part that i dread most about my days. that's why if you ever call me in the middle of the night i will probably answer, i cant sleep, i cant think stray, I'm always watching the phone and afraid that i will miss a call. i run errands and go to the park and the first thing i do when enter our home is check for messages, how sad is that. i can be brave and strong when i need to be and i can be really good at putting a front and telling people "I'm great, and yeah everything is fine" or "its OK time will go fast" but its not true, I'm not OK, who can be OK when their husband is off to war and your left behind. And no time doesn't go fast, time seems to go by so slow when he is gone. No one knows the pain i felt the day i saw David get on that plain and waive good bye from the top of the stairs, i could hardly breath of how hard i was crying on the outside of our car, because our kids where in the inside, and i didn't want them to see. i had to clean my face and put a happy face, which is what i pretty much do everyday. so people please when i say I'm ok some times i will not mean it but don't question it, i can cry in the spot and i hate it.

so that's me and my toughts, as i said i cant sleep, so love you all.

IM LOSING IT!!

it's ok to laugh at me!! but for my life i can not remember my PIN # for my ATM card. i went to the store to pay and man did it try every number i could think of!! so i runned to the car and i had some cash , and when i came back to pay, it wasn't enough. i owed 25 and some change and i only had 20, so i said take something out and just leave it at $20 and man there is still nice people out there. this guy offered to pay the $5 , i kept saying thank you while i tried packing all my stuff and controling the kids, stoping logan from jumping off the cart and the twins fighting!! ooh loving children!! and man its bugging me that i cant remember, i have gone to the ATM machine and tried every number i could think of and nothing!! what can i do??? so i will call my saving angel tomorrow and find out!! doorly, im sorry im a pain on your butty!! love ya all

p.s i also can not find a pair of shoes and some colors that i got for the kids. like i said im losing it!!

so we have a little case of pink eye!!!

and by little i mean ALL OF US!! yeah fun!!! 3 grumpy kids that do not want to be cleaned and washed and put eye drops in!!! then there is me, with bad eyes trying to take care of the other 3!! so we are on meds and hopefully within 5 days we should be better or at least thats what the doctor said.

well little story, i dont know how many of you are "friends" fans but i know a few people who love the show!! right doorly!!anyways im going to the episode where Rachel goes to the Dr. and they give her eye drops, then Monica trys to put some on her eyes and she puts a fight. then finishes a whole bottle on her. well imagine me trying to wrestle Emma, so i can get 2 drops on her eyes, i tried everything in the nice way, the other 2 ids went first and didn't complain so i said to her " see brother and sister are fine" come on and she went under the bed!!! nice, now i have to fetch a kid from under the bed, after a few hits on my head i finally got her out and had Lizzy help me hold one hand so i could get her eyes open so i could put the eye drops in. man it took me 15 minutes just for her. i started to laugh so hard after, and she just looked at me and said "done, i want miko(which is milk)" so that was our day one1! CAN NOT WAIT FOR DAY 2-5!!! YEAH FOR ME!!

wish us luck!! love ya all ana and the kids

40th MP video

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PQEPG1hlrRI


i found it in you tube posted by someones loved one in the unit. so enjoy. look for david he is there around the 1.23 minute he is the one with the black cover in his googles.

busy weekend!!

well my kids started developing pink eye simptoms on friday and then by saturday had it, then by today emma has it, so all 3 kids have pink eye. so we are off to the doctors at 3pm. wish us luck!! so our weekend was really good, we had a yard sale and i sold 45 dlls wort of stuff. but then the sad reality hit and i had to spend 20 on gas wich by theway is $3.75 a gallon so lets say the needle barely moved. then i had to get diapers and i went to a birthday parthy and pufff! my money is gone!! the on sunday we went to my sisters and had carne asada and a very good time with the kids and my sisters. the kids played with water and enjoy it to the max, finally we came home late and putthe kids to bed, my brake finally!!! so we had a busy weekend.

and some good news david passed his PT test and he did really good. he is very proud of himself he did 2 miles in 15 minutes.

well thats all the news from us, have a great week and we love ya all

does this makes me patetic???

last night was a hard night, i went to bed and of cours since im so sencitive right now, i cried because i felt so lonelly. then i saw david's shirt that he wore the day before we left and i put it on, looking for his smell. i feel so stupid because i have gone thru this already and i thought that it was suppose to feel easier , because "i know what to expect" but man was i wrong, i feel it harder then the first time. we already know the base he is going to but for security purposes i can not tell you, but all i can say is that he is going to be ok. i hope. i have made the most wonderful friend, she is the wife of one of david's friends, she is so nice, her name is Sara and she is the one in the picture. she gets me!! i know family can say "sorry" and "i know what you mean" but in reality they don't know what i mean or how i really feel. but another wife that her husband is gone KNOWS and im greatful i met her.dont get me wrong i love my family in both sides and my friends, but its nice to have some one else that trully understands whats going on. anyways, thats my wine for the day, love ya all.

p.s david is getting his antrax shot today and he hates it, so keep him on your prayers that it wont make him sick.

some picture of david's promotion!!

david,hard at work!! he was loading all the bags into this "conix".
David and Cpl.wu, at their promotion ceremony,reading the NCO creed!,so proud of him.
one more of him!! he is a CPL. and soon to be a Sargent!!
Headquarters squadron!! very profecional!!

and he is off to ft. dix!!

here is a video that chanel 7 did on the unit leaving for iraq. its pretty cool, david is on the first part, when the unit is marching,!! anyways, he is safe and sound and well it was very hard to let him go, but its his duty and he is doing it with pride and honor and we are 100% behind him, i love him so much and can't wait to see him.

http://abclocal.go.com/kabc/media?id=6064945

david in action!!

so here are a few pictures of david and some guys from his unit, he really likes his unit and his commande. they are very organized and are always looking out for their soldiers. he had a good time at training as you can see!!! anyways we are 3 days away from him leaving for new jersey and its sinking in hard, i try not to cry but believe me when i say i will cry my eyes out once he is gone. he is my world and my kids hero, they love their daddy so much and will miss him dearly. zanyways, love ya all.